well, it's finally happened

my daughter has started "sleeping through the night". it isn't truly all the way through (aka 12 hours), but it sure isn't up every 2 hours! HALLELUJAH! thank you Lord that it's happening now, before i have to go back to work. she's sleeping at least 6-7 hours in a row, and then anywhere from 3-5 hours in a row after that. this i can deal with. i'll even continue feeding her once  a night when i go back to work - it feels like nothing!

speaking of work...i go back February 1st. <sigh> i have very mixed emotions about it all. first of all, i don't have daycare yet, and that makes it worse, cuz i'm anxious about finding some. i have a couple leads, and several back-up "babysitters", but nothing firm. i gotta call some people tomorrow.

i'm nervous about having enough energy to work. i'm nervous about finding my nouns again (will they ever come back??!!??) so that i sound intelligent. i'm worried i won't be able to balance work and home life. i'm scared i won't be able to do it. i'm scared i'll miss so many exciting things that R will do. i'm afraid i'll get sucked into more work than i'll be able to manage. it's such a HUGE change. oh yeah - and i'm going to miss my naps LOL. hopefully my sleep debt will get reduced this month. <sigh> i am very conflicted. i never thought i'd say this, but i don't think i'd mind too much if i had to stay at home with her and not work.

that being said, i am only going back part time. and i'm going to tell her at night, not to do anything exciting at daycare - aka, pull to stand, take her first steps. :P

so, if you pray, pls keep me in yours, about work. thanks y'all! <3

another great giveaway

from Organic Girl. :) Ringley natural teethers. http://tinyurl.com/yfl3bbu

a great giveaway!

no, not by me, but another great blog. :) Nimli clothing and accessories.
http://tinyurl.com/ydckyzb

A Fall Picture, and a giveaway!

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Isn't my baby girl adorable? :D these are two of my favourite pictures right now. On Saturday we went out to Nauman's pumpkin patch in St. Clement's and picked out a pumpkin. I'm even contemplating letter her get mucky when we carve it! <heehee>

So, the giveaway. There is a great carrier called the Lillebaby EveryWear Baby Carrier
and Organic Girl is giving it away here http://www.mommybloggers.ca/2009/10/lillebaby-everywear-baby-carrier-review.html . It looks really great, allowing for multiple kinds of carries!

ok, so i suck

i apparantly don't know how to blog on a regular basis. :P well, i don't know how to do anything on a regular basis anymore. that comes with the inability to sleep for more than 2 hours at a time, thanks to my lil' one. lack of sleep = no memory. also, my babe is very much a mama's girl right now, only willing to settle for Mama and not Daddy, and wanting to be in our arms whenever possible. i'm trying to keep in mind that i need to cherish the time i have with her, and not begrudge her needs.

that being said, i want to focus my blog right now. i think i would like to make it more of a photo blog, updating what Ruby is doing, and how she is growing, and to share great giveaways!

so, the first giveaway is at: http://kidzborn2impress.blogspot.com/2009/10/mrssmith-diaper-bag-review-and-giveaway.html?showComment=1256530177445#c5031741568882325533
a great blog, filled with reviews of useful and cute (:D) products for us and our babes. please feel free to pass it along!

i used to:

- shower every 2 days
- wash my face twice daily
- sleep only with my hubby
- wear pretty bras
- sleep through the night
- shop for clothes for me
- go out by myself
- have energy for...anything
- do laundry once a week
- not smell like cheese
- not think about my boobs all the time
- not whip out my boobs in public (can you see a theme starting?? :D)
- go out with just a purse
- be able to clean on a regular basis (not that it happened all the time :(, but had the ability!)
- fall asleep only lying down
- sleep on my stomach all the time

this list sounds very selfish, and it is. i have realized since having my daughter, that i am very naturally a selfish person. it is true, God gives us children to make us grow up, and to show us how He sees us. i am trying to reconcile my love for my daughter with my need for alone time (very important for a mommy - to be able to continue to give to the child 24/7), and to adjust my attitude to one of selflessness. i regularly need to remind myself that God has given me this blessing, and she is a blessing - not just a taker of sleep, energy and milk ;). she is a joy and a beauty and will teach me and grow me greatly.

needing to post

but not really sure what to say...i'll write about being confused about what to write.

so, i'm online a lot, and i have a number of blogs that i follow, however not as consistently as some people might. i find so many people are so eloquent in the way they write! and i feel like my posts are more train of thought posts, and not fit for my blog. :(
i will try to get over this. after all, a blog is for blogging. not thinking how crappy a blogger i may be. :P
so, i will try to blog once a week. plus, i promised a friend who is about to have a baby, what my thoughts are on how a baby changes your life drastically. so, that is my thought for tonight. i may get on before a week is up, but i wanted to post something. thanks for reading... :)