Tuesday, July 14, 2009

i used to:

- shower every 2 days
- wash my face twice daily
- sleep only with my hubby
- wear pretty bras
- sleep through the night
- shop for clothes for me
- go out by myself
- have energy for...anything
- do laundry once a week
- not smell like cheese
- not think about my boobs all the time
- not whip out my boobs in public (can you see a theme starting?? :D)
- go out with just a purse
- be able to clean on a regular basis (not that it happened all the time :(, but had the ability!)
- fall asleep only lying down
- sleep on my stomach all the time

this list sounds very selfish, and it is. i have realized since having my daughter, that i am very naturally a selfish person. it is true, God gives us children to make us grow up, and to show us how He sees us. i am trying to reconcile my love for my daughter with my need for alone time (very important for a mommy - to be able to continue to give to the child 24/7), and to adjust my attitude to one of selflessness. i regularly need to remind myself that God has given me this blessing, and she is a blessing - not just a taker of sleep, energy and milk ;). she is a joy and a beauty and will teach me and grow me greatly.